I have spent a huge chunk of my life suppressing how I feel in order to hide my emotions from people I love around me. I do this because I don’t think they would understand how things are for me. But more importantly, I don’t want anyone to worry about me, and I don’t want to burden them with the negative energy that seems to be a part of me now. I feel my pain, worry, and tears are mine and nobody else should have to share it. I want to be the reason for someone’s smile and nothing different. And that’s why I’m always joking around and laughing, just so the person I’m with can have an excuse to smile. I resort to wearing a happy mask to hide the real me, the sad me. And I probably seem like I have everything going for me, but deep inside I’m broken. The thing is, I’ve worn this mask for the world to see for a long time now, and as things are feeling worse for me I fall further down this dark place and my need to wear this mask grows. But I’m scared I may crack and reveal my true emotions, and this is becoming my latest anxiety as I fear no one will accept me for the real me. I don’t know if I can hold this facade for much longer.
Here at Inspire Therapy, we offer you the space to talk about how you feel so you can further explore your emotions and find out where they stem from. We are here to work with you to help see you through your difficult times.
